this week

i had a dream today. everything was going wrong. just so overwhelming. everything.

so i took those loud metal stairs up to the top of my apartment building.

i just wanted to fly away.

i woke up this morning and tried my best not to look in the mirror. every time i do, something changes. it's scary.

today sucked. i was so close to just doing it, but no. why can't i say it? why can't i just be who i want to be?

maybe it's my fault. if all these other people can do it, why can't i? why can't i just be like them? happy, proud, accepted. there must be something wrong with me.

whatever. im gonna go back to bed.

someone posted a file on the forum today. i've never heard of a [.eve] file before, but it launches like normal? hmmm. idk what it does. the post is deleted now.

what is this? how does it know? this program is freaking me out. it won't close. the power button doesn't even work anymore.

i can't turn it off i can't turn it off i̴ ̸c̵a̶n̸t̵ ̸t̷u̸r̷n̴ ̷i̵t̶ ̵o̴f̵f̸ i̷̗̪͐̔ ̸͚̲̮͂̂c̷̢̰̱͆a̸̡͚̘̒̓̌n̷͙͙̙̈́̏̓t̷͎͉̎ͅ ̶̙̀͒͝t̷̳̓̊̓u̷̲̞͐̏͜ȓ̵̹͒̓ņ̵̛̠͈̉ ̶̗͒͋ȉ̴̖̆ẗ̸̞̮́ͅ ̴̫̩̲͝ò̷̳͇̈͂ͅf̸̪̝̉͠f̶̺͆ i̸̠͉̥̞̿͆̄ ̸̤̗͖̮̻̣̓̉́͆̊̏͜͝c̷̳͇̠͚̭̉͊̓a̸͚̠̦̤̞͋n̴͇̯͎̗͛͛̓̔ẗ̷̛̜̋͜ ̷̞̗̺̌͝t̴̢̘̣̣͔͑ͅu̸̢͍̝̘̹͇͒̈͗̾͝ṟ̶́n̸̢̯̂ ̸̩̭͍̝̔͑͛͛̑̚ĩ̷̤͈̥̲͒̿͊̀͘͠t̴̨͕̜̩̉̉ ̸̛̦̟̦̗̼͚̃̅̉̽ô̵̜͌̇f̷̨̲͖̘͙͚̼̈̒̄͗f̸͕̉̍͛ i̸̘͕̻̙̲̘̺̞̘̾͐̀͛̓̕͘ͅ ̴̧̛͇̗̟̰͚̟̃͗̊̋̿̽̉̈́̅̕͜c̴̢̛̝͚͙̟̖̟̟͉̈̄͂͐̀̓̀͊̔ͅa̵͈̗̟͙̘̗̅̔͐͐̈́̑̓́̔́͋͒̕͜͝n̴̨̹͔̳̯̺̹̠̘̪͙̱͕͙̜̘͊͒̽̓̒̉͗͊̀̆͆̚͝͝͠ͅt̷̨͉̪͙̱͔̪͉̹͕̠̫̀̽́̀̏ͅͅ ̸̧̛̛̣̞̜̠̟̰̝͓͎̦̣̬̅́́́͐̄͌͑̔̿̀̈́̏ţ̸̧̦͕͚̤͍̩͓̝̰̜͖̝̐̚͠ṵ̶͙̻̩͇̖̟͙̝͗̒̀͝r̶̘̱̺͙͉̞̽̂́̍̚͘̕͝n̶̯͑̃͐̆͝ ̵̛̼̲̜̭̫͖̺̘̖̙̊͌̽͐͐̀̐̓̄̍͋͋̕̕͝ͅͅǐ̷̢̨̫͕̺̙̟͙͎̮̯̠͚̭̫̟͌͌̍̌̍̄̏̇̀̉̎͒̈́̿͌͆ẗ̶̢̢͉̗̳͍̥͖̻͕͚̞̅̆̏̈́͊̒͜ͅ ̵̧̛̘̘̞̻̹̻̱̦͗͒̍̐̂̏͑̀̒͒̓͘͝͝ó̸͇̾͐͂̑̋̒̅͐́͑̑̎͘͠͝f̴̗͎̘͕̭̫̫̆͊̈́̊̿͝͝f̸͇̻͇͚̘̲͋̇͋͆̊̀̏̓͌̀͂͊̒̏̓͠͝ i̴̢̨̡̧̭̣̯͓͕̹̜̩̜͓͈̫̗̯̞̪͕̜̩̻̭̺̣̪̮̙̥̓̐̈́̓̃̈̒̎̓̿͑̂̈͆͆͗̈͛͋͜͜͝ ̴̯̖̥͓̖̭̯̪̐͜͠c̶̡̧̡̡̗͈̮͈̹͓̬̹̝͕̼̫̮͈̻̱̻̤̩͕͖͕͖͋̏̓̓̈́̊̒̽͌̔̆͆̑̌̀̽̎͒̓͌͌̏͒̿̂͘͜͜͝a̵̛͖̪͐̃̐̐̔̐̇̑̎̉̅́̃͆́̀͑n̷̢̡̼͕͍̺̹̫͕̥̪̱̱͓̞̱̍̓̊͋̊̾̍̑́̓͝͠͝t̷̢̨̨̧̖͕͉͎̭̬̪̗̗̲̪͚̜̠̜͉͖̳̤̩̬͍̞̳̹̘̱̩͐̍̆͗͂̾̍͒̈́͐̾͜ͅͅ ̶̢̧̨͙̫̙̠͙͙̳̞̪̥̣̠͖͇͔̘͍̦̙͍̻̻̮͓̜̠̼̫̖̝͚͜͝ͅţ̶̨̧̛͇̦͈̥̠̣͓̘̙̣̲̙̳̯̾̈́̊̑̔̅̀͜͠u̴̡̡̡͔͙̺̘̖̙͖̹̥̼̩̯̟̳̇͋̈́̃́͒͋̌͛̑̓̈́͐̽̕͜ͅŗ̴̡̨̡̛̫̯͍̦̻͓̹̫̩͔̺͈̤̰̤̣̥̼̦̣̟̦̠̞̀͌̄̋̓̇͗̄͆͗̓̂̍͋͐́̉̈́̇̒̈́̌͒̈́͂͆̀̈̑̕͜͜͜͝ͅn̸̨̢̧̥̝̙͈̤̭̠̘͇̙̼̠̥̞͍̞̗̮͉̫̭͇̲̫̩̈́͌̽́̎̿̕ ̴̢̨̨̹̗̬͇̭͖͎̩͕͔̹̬͇̠̫̲̝͈̫̠̻̰̀̏̑́̾̎̋̃̌͑́̎̇̀̊̈́̆̃̿͐̆̋̑̈́͗̍͆͘͠͝͝i̸̢̨̨̙̺̞͈̙̰͕͔̝̋̈̈́̐̽̕̚͜ţ̵̡̢̨̧̛̖̹̦̥͚̬̖͙̟̬͚̠͇̝̼̦̦͓͖̩̥̖̬̬͓̭̯̜͗͊̓̑̏̓͋̍́̈̌̽͗̈́̑̽̈́̿̔̄͋̈́͊͋̍̽́̆͘͝͠͝ͅ ̸̪̼͎͕͙͉͓̤̼͈̼̗͔͚͊̽̈́̐ö̴̺̟̰̝̭̼̜̩̰̣͔̳̘͔̘́͒̀̾̇́͊̾́͊͝ͅf̴̡̛̥͕̞̮͉̳̱͑̽̅͐́̏̆̆̀̌͋̃̓̽́̔͜͠͠ͅf̵̢̨̢̢̨̛͔̗̖͓̝͍͍͓͙͚̩̼̻̭͔̭̣̌͆̾͛̌̾̔͐̿̓̽̏͂̎͑́̓̉͛͘͜͝͠͝

i was scared at first, i'll be honest. but she really opened my eyes! maybe it doesnt have to be like this anymore?

every day hating myself just a little bit more. silent. hiding. it gets to you, ya know?

it doesnt have to be like this anymore.

ok. this is it. thank you for everyone's nice messages, i love you all! but i have to go now.

she gave me an offer i couldn't refuse.

i hope you can forgive me.

Hey, this is umm... Violet's friend. I havent heard from him in a while. I came to check on him but, he's not here.

Does anyone have an idea where they might be? Anyways, I keep hearing strange things coming from this computer. Almost like a voice. So, I'm gonna go. Please message me if you hear from him!

- minervousx86 on AIM

This is Violet's friend again. I don't know what it was, but something was calling me back here.

I've spoken to Violet and she wanted me to let you all know that she's okay now. In her words, "a perfect digital existence.

Unburdened."